GROOVEon,ya

2008-08-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

no more no more HIATUS((:

ok..back to school for kinda..short break..cos it like onli 3 days..
i sort of love school now..cos for one thing..ive got nothing to do at home..
im laying back almost all the time.. D; fatty here i am..hahaha..im not sure how much im gaining..
but that dont bothers me...cos..hahaa..i nvr think of that before..hahaha:DD
splendid! i did my N's roject already....thank god..thank god..its allover..((: i need not need to put any more strength on the sawing,chiselling,filing..or planing it..cos i ran outt of muscles..
ive not got any slots to fit my exercise day in.. )): sad-ed ..guess what im eating now?? hahaha
fried fish cracker.. (: ive just done 100 sit ups..&& im eating..whats the diff??hahahahhaa
its tempt me..cos i bought the cracker & the junk food on the previous 3 days..&& im like..
doont eat..dont eat..save it for another day..&& cos no ones at home now..
i tore it open..& im muching..hahaha((((: today suppose to end at 8.25 am...yes yes..
very early..((: cos theres only prelims lc..
delayed & delayed for paper checking...&& my dnt stuufs..it ended at 2 plus!!!
im dropping dead alredy by then... DDDDD;
tired2!! today plans was suppose to be an outing with mate,but its not confirmed yet..i'd couldnt make it either..cos im deaddd tireed.. reached homie..at direct 4pm(:

&& yes..tomorow's wednesday is an off day again..
no school..yesyes,..
id do not have any plans yet..

but id think..id think..............

not sure..
;D

till here!! ((:

cos u'll be my friend,in sleep,in my dreams..my dreams.....(:

2008-08-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

today is saturday..
soo random...!

friday is the best!
went to sentossa..&& yes..i love the beach..the weather was kinda playin around with the
sun..cloudy & back to super sunny((:
im always so desperate when it comes to the beach! beach! beach!!!!
i dont know why........but i soo love the beach hahahaa..

its like an escape for the day..
head to vivo citayy next! my mood sorta change suddenly..i myself dont know why!
hahaa..lOL!&& suddenly..
a kfc banggala talk to me..i was like..

"ouh shit!!! he's gonna talk to me!!
i soo have no mood! im gonna get pissed realll sooon!"

he came forward and say...u want chilli?? like wdh??! mates haven even ordered yet..
&& haven got a small cup to dispense the chilli..& he ask a person..who is me.who
doesnt even order a food..& he want to give me chilli to eat! -_-!!!

&& after mates arrived to bring the food...
he was wiping the trays beside us!..
sooooooo irritating!!!

& the manager came..he was about to talk to me again..when mates is washing her hand..
but he doesnt..cos the manager saw him..when were about to go home..

then whe we wanna went home..he said..
"eh..lucky sia..didnt talk to u just now..or i'll get sacked..!"

i say"ouh really ar..i dont care..who says i wanna talk"

really piss my dayy offf siol!!

today...ndp!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

but im here at home..really2..stuck up..
nowhere to go..
since i watched the fireworks the other time..
im in no mood to watch it again..

decided to go library..but its closed since it was public hols..
so i switch my mind to sleep..till 6pluss!in the afternoon..
sister love cant make it today with me..she has an outing with her mates fyla..
but making out with her on 20th..maybe(:

today was pissed too actually..
being blamed of notwhat u really did..
im veryy CONFUSED!!!!
imean...what is my parents thinking?
would i even like chat & meet out with person i dont know..
come on....i wont do such stuff...
i wont fall for anyone either..

ok..now theyre bugging me!

till here

if i walked down the hills tonight..

2008-08-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

so yeahhs..im at the designing room after my 2nd last paper ended
((: it was 9.20 then.. ok..v early ryte..hahahahasss.. :D
for the paper just now i was doing,im like so urghhh cramped there with lots of info running thru my head..not knowing which is the ryte one to be used.. -_-.. sighhh...!!! u cant doubt im like a machine robot..((:
even when i turned my head to look around the surrounding after staring too long at the paper..
my head,..i mean neck..jammed!!! like rusty..to turned..hahahahahha

but for today,
i decided to finish up my project boards..
im not sure what got in to mate today....she went home..she didnt come along...

so its ok...

im still typing here happily.....why??
bcos,...

all other levels are having tiring lesson..when only my class..
ended fuctiinnnggg earlyy,..&& i can still surf the net now,..hahaha

its not like everday ive got permission to do all the stuff i want ((((:
*clapps***claps***!!

im in going nuts
for the beach outing soonn!!!!
its like merely a paradise..

damn true relaxing,..

imagine,....realaxxxxxxxxxinnngggg~~ weehehehe:DD

im not sure if anyone out there knows if ive gotta blog..
cos i wont tell..
on my cousins knew bout it..
ecp my other mates..

*&& if u'll get to read this..
ure not suppose to be reading this cos..
itsa private blogg..

so if y'all try damn hard wanting to know my blog url,..&& uve found it..

ure not suppose to be reading this..cos again..

its PRIVATE(:
i know its not logic...
but..

a public blog will soon be make for all to share((:
& this blog is again...PRIVATE..

:DD

okok..

currently on HIA-TUS!
update soon!

wehahahaa!!! :DD

2008-08-05T00:30:00.000-07:00

STRUCK A POSEYYYY Y Y Y Y Y

WHEN URE OUT ON UR OWN ;D

2008-08-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

erghhh... still stuck at home since just now ard nine plus plus???
school typically ended early today..i mean effing early roday((: ok thats good *applause*
infact i have nothing to do...mates cancelled off the day to meet her..as she got some problems at home..sighhhh..............im half way all dressed up...ok shiatt man...)):
im all so readyyy to get going..not that i cant sit still at home..cos theres nothing to do...)):
tv shows are damn boring today..very! ...
&& i got the intention to go off studying alone...
as...the rest couldnt make it..doesnt meant im all so stuck up neing a rotting doll down here..
infact..i get moviingg!!
why why why.............

im still thinking bout my mates..sighhh..
i cant believe it was cancelled off.. )))))))))): sad-ded!

i can imagine me sitting there as a solo..doing my studs..
ok shit mann...im so going to be focused...)))):
cos immer solo..

okok...its ok..........
its not so bad after all.......

i can manage...

post up tomorow..

stay tuned!!((:

if i ??............

2008-08-04T02:42:00.000-07:00

ive beenreally realllyy...packed up these days..
most of all,projects.. -_- im still pulling my heads on them..even though it dued long time...
prelims are going on right now..but all i see on my face are stressed up features that just gloomed my days off.. )): but im very very effing happy for saturday & sunday even though i poured in bed last night for not backing up on my lazyness...i still know one thing..ive got my mum..so does my families....even though i see lagg off attention from my fathers & all && im
so..sooo stuck lagging behind time..i just wanna have a break through...
& i didnt even remeber the last time i smiled so happy & felt good within..
yesterday..was a memorable day...me & mum..i realise she's there...
she was awake with me the whole night..even though
she was fregging tired cos i took her out
on sunday to browse on stuff & shopped for the day((((((: ...
who says i need bf's?
who says im still weak??? says who?? says whoo?? ...even though
i knew i poured so much the other months..i knew..it wasnt
even worth a tear..when no ones
there to care...i see that the world was much bigger..&& theres alot more
people u dont know...but heres this...its like magic...
out of a sudden...there a lot more people wanted knowing you...& u felt so locked up..& not letting myself go,..in a sense that..to mixed with them..
cos one thing i know..with or without
a special someone...doesnt meant..
i cant breathe....,
i cant lift my legs up....
but to see where i stand now...

i think...

its ok being my own :DDDDDD

& says who...?? says who.. (:

2008-07-25T01:58:00.000-07:00

Would you drizzle the rain with me?

heyy!! :DDDDDDDDDDD hahahaa..*giggles*
i know..its been long..hahaha....im so-not having a good month..)))):
as people kept asking me why do i always fall asleep in school like evryday???
hmph..)))))))): i know i did not..only between lesson..but not whole lesson!!!!!!!!erghhh
i dont want to be known for lazyness..infact tired people are the most hardworking..
agreed?? hmm....i felt like stuffing more food in my mouth..no,..........not that im stressed out..
&& have this bad habits..but..id just dont want to think about it..
even now..can i just have 1 day whole time free rest for myself?? sighhhss..u know what even now...they are still like bugg me bout everything these and that..,
sometimes..i just felt so exhausted...& like wanna go somewhere elses on vacation..but rest assured..im going overseas soon enuf(:
currently on hiatus!

beautifull tulips,:D yes ..i know((((((:

its more of a rainy day season now...& id have to finish my task at school..

even during school..but im glad,we've got a new design teacher..i could see improving skills for

me:DDDDDDDDDD.. and im more targetting on my subjects..i actually aimed for 5 points..

1/2 for design,1/2 for humans geo& ss,1/2 for mt/EL

i miss my piercing..!badly!!

smuggling can drinks! hoho!:DDDDDDDDDDDD

mates! mates! mates!

grey skies,& streamers(:

this isnt a paint..was made by a chalk,we first use a chalk karate them to pieces

then take a heavy wood & knock on it..

it turns powdery..& mix it with tap water..

who teach me?? ouh well..i taught my own..:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

creativity..hahahahaa.....more of like an art genius!hahha..jk....

ok its nonscene..

errhh...im having a hard time))))))))))):

2008-07-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

the past days was damn hectic..
&& you could see that ive changed blogskins(((((((((((:
hahahha...chatted with some of mates in the afternnon..
had a boring chat..while theres one who pissed me off..& started blocking the person..

&&&&&&&& sorry,..id post up tomorow..

mch love..

D:

sigh im in nooooooo mooooooooood

2008-07-21T01:08:00.000-07:00

hello RAINNDROPS(:
haha,&& readers as well(((((((((((:

lets talk about my wonderfull saturday..
i cant hang on this..,felt like i wanna bloat everything that i felt that day!
it was kindoff like cinderella dream((((:,but just that it wasnt a dream...
plus,the rain..&& how the heros saved us...hahahaha..
awwwhh...how nice ryte...it was like soooo touching,...
but just one thing..(:
how i wished..i know who'd he is..
cos my eyes are blured & it was night time..
its was like an open ending storey..while i sat there drenched with rain..while he hand me over
dry towels..(:

hahahahaha..
okok! cut it out..
any much sweeter than this?? hahaha!

but obviously..it was a favourable dream to keep..
but hey..im just wondering..((((((:

i was plugging in this hawaian song..&& the whole scene was like ouh -so real..
every action hit the songs..(:
gheeshh...(:
heheheeehehe...ok..
life?
bored.
eyes,
sleepy..
ears,
cant stand it
mouth,
just shutting..

& ALL I CRAVE NOW IS..
SENNNNNNNNNTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
again!
yes,yes!
again(((((((:

how about,everyday((((((((:
hehehehe

post up pic soon!

much loves!

2008-07-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

hey readers(((((((((:

yeayeaaaaaaa...its been effing long since ive got the time to update..
even today..im going ot type damn ass fast cos i got an appointment later on..sheeshh..
im exhausted -_- realllllllyy..... sighh...life was so jumbled up for the past days..including today..
but err,..for a bit..(: hahs! jumbled up in a sense of...feelingd..i suppose..my brain are still scaterred..so dun blame on me why..its liike a jolt...the memory passed me off ike a jolt..get it??
i cant even stand still to dream of awhile..cos my mind will flow to somewhere else..
so with that..im effing ly making myself ubbber much busy lady....cos i cant bear spending time to think of it...nehhh!! i could get a hold of myself..not that im weak..or running away from stuffs or smthg...but..its better off left alone..rather than touching it..hadnt had my lunch yet..
going soon...((((((((((: tv channels are rotting like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaat...theres this stupid human ape im watching now..the face is green...nope2..not shrek...its way more ugllier..
just that..this thing loves to cook..LLLLLLLLLLAAMEE!!-_-'' hahahhahaa..
so my back is facing the tv...i'll let my butt do the talking to the ugly monster..hahahaha
while i face the comp..posting off to another school for papaer was drawing nearrrrrrr
nervous..of course! why wouldnt i be?? a thumping feeling..and a rockking boat floods
my lungs..almost half of it....my n's work place shall be at marina..ive aimed it too long(:
&& going to work there for 3 mths,............ && SAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

cos ive got smthg in mind...
nono..i dun wanna share...((((((((((((((:
ok now the tv has this farm song...not ouh macdonald..
but more happierrr..my ears burning..i cant even stretched for the remote..to turn my back was
another thing i dont want to...
my food is getting cold..gonna heat it up again..
ouh maybe..dont sweat it...im gonna eat cold rice too...so its the same-_-

2008-07-09T07:39:00.000-07:00

wednesday,was a great day to start off with heavy rain.. ((((((((((:
ubberly cooling...with headphones plugged in..(:
today was as the same as any other days,in fact.,,i slept in between lesson,but luckily.
it was a relief t-cher..(: so i didnt miss out anything(: yeeppiee!!
but i ended up having dark circles on my eyes!! ahhaha:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
so swallen lahh DEYY!!:(((((((((((( i puled out various peepoo to accompany me to the toilet..
none wants,.so i pull out deary nas to accompany me..
i wash & wash...finnaly!..slightly better:)
concerntrated 100% on everything! cos my energy was restored!
& off to dnt next lesson..dun ask me what happened..
all my budds& lame asses bully me..that makes me showed off my
martial arts skills.. hahaha..
esp pinching!:))))
so its,10:59pm now.im not in bed..i dun feel like it..maybe soon..
lifes kinda bored...but i dun blame..((: i just hoped my n's are over,so i could start off working
for like 3mths((((((((((((: what i really want is..a very2 relaxing dayyyyyyyyyyyy!
that i could put my mind off!! im soo stressed..&& my msn peepo stucked me in my brain
&& mixed me up like rojak all over again,stressed nye aku ni!!!!!

arghhhh!!!!
nemind2...............

if they'd messd me up last time..
aint no other meesing up with me again..

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i'll be,i'd be..

2008-07-08T06:50:00.000-07:00

trust me,im GEEKY..i go MADD :DDDDDDDDDD & we'll kill all f****ing JERKS hahs!(:

school todays was sort of,OKOK....
nothing more or much happened..,other than i giggled for sytraight 10mins
for a joke((((: hahaa..school was just plain..but id think its not bored at all..
i feel time is getting shorter & shorter evrytime..like..when i didnt go for recess,its just feels like 5 mins in classroom without eating..and a day feels like just an hr...hehs!:D
time is really ticking..hahaha..till noww!!!!..
but then i felt like bloging evrytime..so id had no worries ok:)
mums not home yet..so does father..he just went out a few mins ago..
at home is where boredomn lives for me..i got no new storybooks to readd!! && im craving for one..esp the "little black dress" productions..i barrely couldnt get my hands off them man!!!
tittles on front page seemed tempted for me to take it away from the shop! but NONO..
im not like that..maybe i'll crave..or even..i'll gonna get over it sometime((((((:
but if u knew,..ud bertter get ur hands on them too..at the "times" shop at marina sq~!
&& i'll just hpe everyday was gonna be splendid..
&& i wanna go johor badly....!! why??? hahaha..
mums know why.. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

till here readers!(:

with love,
EL(:

my school desk;D

BOOOKSS!((((((:

the best thing,is to disturb her(:

caramel marshmellow,from corduroy :DD
pout like this,cos im better off bored! -_-''~~~!!

hahaha..so till here(:

stay tuned!

cos,were the best!:DDDDDDDDDD

2008-07-07T06:15:00.000-07:00

im gg to sleep (:

enjoy the vids:D

nite2!

2008-07-07T06:08:00.000-07:00

2008-07-07T05:45:00.000-07:00

2008-07-06T13:05:00.000-07:00

heyy peepoo (((:
its 4:06 am..now..
&& yes..i havent sleep yet..harr harrhaarrr!!!:DDDD
watch dvd just now..with dad..ate && drink 3 cups of milo straight with handmade caramel
bought by sister love at vivo(: ubberly nice okehss..:DDD thanks babe!!!
went marina earlier on with deary friwnd mates anne..head to ljs first to eat..sooooo sooo shocked,price raised up to like&^%&&!!! sighh 0.o!!!!
if last time i closed my eyes & doesnt care...,i tell you what..it REALLLY MEANT alot noww ok!
since,its hard to work & study at the same time..i ended up having holes in my pocket..
DDDDD: awwwwwwwwwwwwwh!
im feeling kinda tipsy now...dunno why..hahahaha..
&& yes..probs was after me like waterfall...im hanging on...half way there only..
but..yes...i mean..&& yes..haha..im getting over it much((:
im going on strong alone..despite just stopping on right there...
everyday was now like a bad hair dayy..
all i can say is.."i dont care what you all think "hahaa...cos im so done with to worry all bout this
stuff..it really annoys me..
&&
im getting tired now..shall post up or..continue tomorrow((((:

nite~~~

2008-07-04T04:33:00.000-07:00

Today was normal like any other days,..
just that its half day today!!(((((:
but nothing intresting struck my mind..,mates came for a visit && watched dvds all
day long:DD... its ubberly funn!((: we even slept as were exhausted from all the eating,
drinking& watching..hahaha:D
counselling session for my buddy mates are done..cos i know..now is the time..she really
really needs me..&& i want to be there with her to solve her doubts..
&& im glad shes doing fine..i can feel her pain shes going throughh..sighh..
the funny things is,i lend her a puma shirt to wear for the day,as shes wearing polo'ts
hahaha;DDD..
i feel to deep sleep after watching kungfu panda! she woke me up..and says,"ouhh you sleep,
dont lie..!!i know u sleep" i was like.."no...im not..haha..& went dozing off again..
i felt ike as if she was a small sister to me..hehehe(:
she woke me up & says..tie me a ponytail pls..hahaha..i was.."ok..ok.."
i rubbed my eyes and neatly combed her hair..i sent her to bustop &
waited for her bus..next,sister love rang me up a few mins later..to talk to me awhile..
i forgot i got a miserable camp tomorow,so i cancelled and promisedher my sundays(:
okok..
till here.,.
dads scolding me for using the com!

2008-07-02T06:22:00.000-07:00

well yes,its wednesday,& its 10.42pm now..
im still onto coursework lahh..-_-''
after school went straight home,& nothing much............
&& currently some touching incident happened today..only sister love knews it(:
well,im proud to say that,sister love(cousin) was there when i need her...

the best thing is..im going onto recovery..
im slowly mending this heart..

gdnights!

2008-06-30T04:01:00.000-07:00

ive just woke up a few mins back..so..a good afternoon.. :DDDDD hahha
ok..i feel dizzy now...-_-'' the first thing that appeared in my brain is.."the computer"
0.o ...my coursework are taking control of me...hahahhaa..and i feel like robot(:
& the next thing in mind..of cos...my blogging...& hey!its the first day to my N'levels..
im not sure how i rate it..but lets hope everything gonna turn out fine:D...
my days gonna be supper free...as...ok..i wont want to repeat it..
im still holding strong...rest assured....i'll swing my way out of these doors...& i will..
if running away was my options..& i would...you get the link somehow???i will do anything..
for a person whose loving me,and hating me too soon...so im gonna get the fact right..
he dont love me no more..and..when i remebered the way i plead...it felt too deep to understand
my real thoughts...even if i bleed...like waterfall..as i know...u wont care...like how it is now.
u hurt me..letting me go..just for the sake to satisfy what u want...well,...its not always about you boy...i got my stand too...& ure making me sacrifise..just because u wanted to go the way
u want..& if u said you cared bout my feelings...and if u breathed to say u loved me..
im more broken than ever to say that...u lied,...u nvr did..if u did..
u wouldnt make me feel so hurt to cry for buckets & days with swallen eyes..just for you..

i contacted you...but u dont feel easy...im feeling you..i know when u dont & when u said
u really do...everything was made up..to a fine story..where one lived,and the other one
made sacrifises..& i play the role in the sacrifises for real..
to be lying down flat..was where u want me too..& to be stepped on so hard..

im still here breathing..
not losing yet..

im hanging on..

2008-06-29T09:02:00.000-07:00

heyy agai!!(:

its 12.03am now!! so...GOOD MORNING MONDAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :dddd
IVE BENN MUGGING through coursework ok.. ;) sighh..many things happened.but.....!i dont
wish top repeat anyof them here..or it wount be any privercy anymore... -_-''
sighh.i admitt..tough life..everyday is toughh...but id bet...if i doesnt do something...nothings gonna change....so im taking a leap now..a big one..to change my surroundings..
no more loveyy doveyy mushyy stuffs...JUST ME OK.. i might turned agrresive now..so bear
with me for a moment dudes and dudettes,..cos a big surprise was given to me the past days..
& it shatter me more than a glass..so id have to get uised to surroundings,,,it may take years..
but...im happy..to know..im back to square one..&& people still equals= to shit..hahaha,..
lmaoo -_-''... so im backk...im gonna make my days ubber busy..
& start visiiting grandmother..or cussins..
my weeks are free now... && cant wait to be 18teen...so id got a bike to school :)
&& no bitches gonna ride with me..only me.. :DDD
hahaha..&& yahh..still wishing for the goddamn hair to grow fast...& line them with red streaks!
more piercing..woooooww bebeh!!! hahaha ;))))sighh....!!

more outing with family :)))))))))
&& last..

i wont fall in love only till i was 18!

2008-06-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

ok..& so..ive not been posting up for ubberly long time.. :)))
busy?? nah...! :) my comp spoiled; XD!! hahaha!! ok not suppose to be funnny actually..
anyway..not my fault..cos ive not been handling com always..what so good being on the net??
dead bored-_-'' i was moost of the time sleeping..so yahh..no comps! haha..
& schools atrts just now..i was late & give a straight warning letter -_-'' yadda...yadda!
im sick of it..sighhs..ani one understoods me here?? lol..~ its 10:15 now..still staring at my
phone..hope it rings..waiting for love..but i guess...he would call me..so thats it.... -_-''
im gonna off my hp soon..save battery.. :) june hols are like school days..& school days are like school.. 0.o!! hahahaa,...so SAVVEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEE!

ouh yah..i did course work straight after school this afternoon..hardworking ehs?
& i was sick yesterday..38.5degress... -_-''help!! & i fell asleep in the dnt room..
for 3 f******* hrs..sighh...life toughh..

hang on.. :)
my bloggs got a fresh new look,despite of the old one..! image was cleared off..
& sort off putting me in no mood to blog anymore...

special days are a few days away..

i wanna make this a surprise..
lets all pray its gonna be good ;)

im lagging....sighhs..

help..??! again?? :((

much loves..
;D

2008-05-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

diaryinheria was created for her life,& truth.

most of the time,i'll be in school,with all my asses freaks to finish up
my coursework..,but the fact was,i sitting still on my chair,the whole time,
doing nothing..well,u people may think i was thinking..am i..?? hahaha..well,
probably..yes..but with no reason at all..i was pissed when i changed from bill to pre-paid. im damn bloody pissed,!! haha..but,ok..yah..i will try getting use to it.
hows my day..& the past days..it was like an empty box,...can imagine that??
hehe :D okok..& the pastime was,crying,shedding tears secretly..without no one noticing..hell,i was strong.i cry not because i was weak or afraid.
cos this was hanging on in me..& i broke down.. :) yes,im fine..now.. :p
i wondered if..ive gonna smile again..im still staying positive,
but,thats just a ques.im trying to move on without love being near me evertime.
& getting used was hard,but rest assured.i'll stsay strong,& try not to
think bout it too much..love felt tirec too after work..
he says i will speak some lovey dovey before i sleep.well i guess it takes much of
his time.& im ending it with a short bye.
&& yah..adding on..theres more on my life that i kept in me..
& not letting things go..

as something bad is coming up now..

byee

2008-05-18T00:22:00.000-07:00

its been hard off these days,ive gotten all the results in..sighh fewwhh..
everything felt ouh-so shattered like broken pieces glass..that cant be
touched,or even fixed into place..as i felt blogger isnt a good place to share the
inner thought as,blogger is not privacy,..i just dont feel right though..sighh~
ive been sighing for the past days,dont forget the nights too..,before im off to bed..i only hoped that,he would feel what i felt..now,its obvious that i need
him now,often..but then..i realised,he cant always be there,..not always..
i feel something was a miss..i felt somethings hidden in you..i just can feel it..
its so strong to make me feel so sure...& uncomfortable to ask it out..if
only you could say it out..without me asking it..

& yestersay outing was a short one with me and love..
about an 1hr pluss??..
love..cant you see those iced eyes of mine??
it hardly drop a tear infront of you..its drowning right behind you
everytime..
im off looking to a positive side everyday...to make it better & brighter..
love..i told you i will make this last..i promise..& you shall do it too..

love...i felt that ive been pouring all the love to you each day..
without failing..&& now..i felt ,as if..it was a one sided love now..

love..isnt this the time you gave in yours?? love...once more if id had to repeat,
i trusted you..for what you've done,even for what you said,for where youve been,
from whom ure with...i really trust you..&& never once it crossed my mind
to deny you...
love will you do the same???

love....
if only you knew i need you now..
let me drowned all my tears to you...

love,you knew me better ryte??:)
love,..do you know i need you now?? :'D

im puzzeled..

i love you.. love:)

much loves,
:D

2008-05-15T04:41:00.000-07:00

THURSDAY

EDIBLE CANDY STARS

its been 3 days now without love :(

im still hanging on..heheh :D he is so addictive..haha :DD

he has the sweet sincere smile i love:) currently in shocking mood..

after my friend sent me msg about the voodoo happening in indonesia,

that involve in using telephoe..she said,if its a long winded no. & appears red,

dont pick up,..she got this news from her sister husband bout it..

alot of them has hit this curfew.. :( sad eh.. 10 in indonessia && 9 a while ago in

thailand..its so cyber now..anything could hapen..its about "being extra" carefull

while receiving calls nowadays,may be danger or prank even..so..

just put that in mind or two:) just ageneral reminder perhaps ;)

ive been currently in love with grooving base beats,..eg like neyo & anyone that

has soothing voice like that.. :p well..im still stuck in staring on com,just

like yesterday story did..**crossing my fingers tight** hoping to have

a day with love soon :) if only i could have him like sticky tape,so as he could

stick around with me no matter where :D

maybe he may think im partly insane..haha :p cos i keep saying the common words i used to express feelings & repeat it over & over again...

but,i cant help it...if i treasure that someone...i really..really doo.. :p

that is me.. ;D

today,ive been eating like mad,..

& ive put on alot of fats & weight..the truth is,

i am never slim before..i have never had flat tummy..bulging one i guess :)

but its ok...cos u know what..i tell myself that..as long as i feel happy eating :p..its ok then :))))))))) looks=nothing the heart does all :)

ive got lots of craves in mind,starting from sk8boards

& lots of top!

"el,!! what have you been up to these days?? hehe..preety much at home aye??

its obvious i guess!!HAHAHAH!!,so uve eaten?? :) well,yes im fine el, dun worry,

i'll be home late today,so dont wait..NAHH nono..dun wait..head off to bed

early alright..yes i noe..i love you too el.. "

goodnight sweetloves,

much love

*whats the quote about?? a made up stories what i imagined my loved would said;DD"

iloveediblestars:)))))))))))))

2008-05-14T03:00:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY
LETS ALL BELIEVE :)

its two-days away without my darl'love :p

sighh..ive been rotting like,even more rotten that anything else.. -_-''

ok..ya..ya,..true..ive not been sleeping well,& at times,i fell asleep out of

nowhere,but then..hols,are preety much tiring..than school days,ive been thinking to start working again...but then,ive heard that i still got classes

at night time,so its around a fifty2 choice for me.. :) imagine,i was staring at the robot com that seems so "human geniously made" that is the computer lah..

for the whole **** day! goshhh... i swear..i got nothing else to do..

i was waiting for my love to msg me,or to ask me out..but he's busy,till the week

so ive had to bear,..each day apart from him makes me feell...soooooooooo

helpless,..but yet,i knew he put me in his heart no matter where he goes,

you see..his very important to me ryte now,for a moment of time,

ive at least felt the peaceness of the world,..with him,ive forget all about my huge nasty problems,& as i promised,i will make this last..

i'll pray hard,& promise to be patient,to go thru the challenges ahead of time

cause at least now i realise,love is not bad,nor harmfull,but only humans

are nastier,& making love a bad meaning,.loving anyone,is wonderfull

but understanding he true meaning,means alot more....

on certain times,i felt,i was harsh..,but after a few mins later,i realise what i

said was wrong,so indeed,i wont reapeat & apologise :)

it just takes time,to feel something,cos everything,needs thinking,& time..

understanding makes it a whole lot better...

ive been savey,yet thrifty..

but it helps later,cos hols coming

hols=no money :) hahahah..

so tell me...before hols start,what is my decision to plan??

i got dnt to go on..my workpiece..&& how about $$$

ive been wanting & bragging bout buying stuff since the first month of 2008

so shud i work to get $$$

or...

put that later..???hahaha..im confused,

let me decide on that later....more cravings in mind,!

sushi,brownies,aunties anne,chippy,ramen!!

&& MORE....!!

so shud i??? hahaa..buying 1 sushi makes me think the whole way,&&

ended up not buying,cos if you have a cash,& when u bought it,..the amount

will be smashed with some dollars& some cents..&& ot doesnt look nice

as the dollar note you had the first place ryte?? hahaha:)

munching on choc coated wafer now :p ubber nyumm!

yet stuck on the screen to type more stories..

well readers,do ever trust ur dreams?? hehehe :D

&& you know what,an hour ago,i got this silly idea..to cut my own hair..

cos i wanna make it more unique..

but i didnt,cos im afaird,the next time i cut my hair at any shop,they may not

be able to folow the style that i wanted ;p

so dont try these at home,* if ure crazier enuf to think like mine ;) hahaha

STILLLLLL I MISSED HIMMM...&& ITS HIS FIRST DAY AT A NEW

WORK PLACE,:D he'll do fine ;DDDDD

groving into my songs??

wel,hit the floor & groove that !!:P

hehehe

much love

2008-05-11T23:45:00.000-07:00

MONDAY(:
happy mothers day to all mum :DDD

split tounges

love & me went to arcade..,id want to try on our luck,& the first dollar

was gone..we prayed hard on another ufo catcher,& it wasnt that bad :p he got me a stitch :DDDDDDDDD. i was over joyed ok! :pppp

i learnt a lesson..cos ive been wanting to win prizes in the ufo catcher for a

long time,& i promised him not to play ufo cathcer again..cos its part

of gambling,& im merely addicted..hahaha..& not hat i got my prize,

its time to quit :DDD

i rated my 1 week 10/10, cos ive been with him everyday :)

we talk,shed tears,we laugh,we crap, together :)

upside down :)

see how crazy our days were?? :)))

hoodies&sk8 shoes got us covered for the day :p

see my evil face :p & his sweet cheeks ;D

its worth lot more :)))

hahah..ok..done with the photos,

& the test papers are gonna be over soonn...id knew it wasnt well done at all..

& ive gonna muggg ubber hard,for all the marks ive missed,that means

more stay backs after school,more squeezing of brains,..& more

stressing eyebrows :) hees..:) but it worth wasnt it?? ;D

heading back home after school was like heaven :) cos ive been wanting all the sleeps ive been missing every night! :p && the days ive had with my love

was really really realllyyy FUN!! love, i wonder what ill do without you..

youre more good than anyone elses,& the attention needed was arrange well

& ive got all the love i need,love your sweet smile brightened up almost

all the time..it makes me feel like biting you everytime the dimples appear ;D

excuse me for all the blueblacks on yourhand,cos you taste delicious hahaha

:DDDD jk! :p love, everything u showered with me was a bless indeed,

thou shall i pray our everlasting relationships :)

im currently staring at the stitchtoy ive had :)

ive been smiling like 24hrs! its damn adorable :p
hahha:p love,save me from all the mouth ached i had

after all the laughters we had together,everyday was lie a smiling lesson ;p

hehehe :)

love,ive do anything to withstand,bearing with pain :)

"el,you there yet?? el,ure late again..heheh be fast alright,

ive been waiting.hehe..ok..at the same place we allways meet,see you soon"

el??

its my 2nd nick name,no contact with my name at all..but it suits me fine ;D

bye readers!

loves,

2008-05-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY

im so sick to look the best,just go gugu :p

im munching on the soft marshyymellow:D

MY BEAUTIFUL DAYS WITH LOVE,

WEDNESDAY

END OF ENGLISH PAPER..

i swear its veryvery stressfull :(

ive been on the go like..everyday...tell me the craziest thing ive done so far ehs??

studying everywhere..even..annywhere..!its possible ok!

& now loves schooling..im at home since 10plus onwards..

fast ehss?? haha :DD english paper was eff hard..but so..so...now im stcuck at home waiting for dearest cuss-sis & head off to dinner later on..

so the past few days was being with love we play arcade..shit the ufo catcher

i was nearly got the stuff!!!! but it sliped off..

there goes my $$$$$$$$$$$$ -_-'' ok..!u can call me broke..

but its worth the play...it gives you the sense of scaredness :) hahahaha

love must be busy thesedays :) hahaha..

but wrth the wait...his nvr less in time.. :p

im siaoo2 watching tv now...im feeling dizzy..going to be in the" no mood" already...

those photos are latest..

till here..

2008-05-03T21:44:00.000-07:00

2008-05-03T21:27:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY

yesterday, that is..saturday,i went for cooking lesson
near jurong west are..spend like a couple of hours there..
sweaty & all of the heat on my body.. :) feewhh! but worth the make..
turn out nice & fine :) & going to give some of it to my loooves:p
yesterday..REALLY RALLY MISSS my love MUCCCCHHHH K!
& he went off singapore to accompany his dearest mum:) & he didnt get
to reply any of my text msges... :( sighh.. he told me,he may be overnite there
with his mum & cussins..siince all of them are there...but he says..it might
not be 100% sure if his going overnite there..
end up...i didnt receive any calls...&& im sure he's overniting there...
but rest assured...at least i knew where he went :D just that i deeply missed
him :) i give like ^%***@##&* callsss ALOTTTT OF MISS calls..haha
just to make sure he reached singapore..but till now,
still not yet...sighh~ i was planning to go out with him... :') lets see...if he text me later.... but im here still veryveryveryvery...confused waiting.. :(
wil he go outwith me..or the other way around..

ive been sick these few days....VERYVERYVERy sickkk!
but i'll hang on....hahhaha:DDDD
cookie pictoot will be uploading soon...opps! i mean muffin..not cookies..
hahahha :)

ok till here...

mood:confused:

labels:waiting for dearest love to return.

ouh ya...
i just ran out of words..seriously..
i feel like dropping dead now,goodbye :)

2008-05-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY

today was mother tounge paper one!
who says it was easy??
erhh,..hmmph...well..its kindof hard yeah..so..soo.. :
i woke up veryvery very sleepy..love didnt wake me up today..so i overslept..
& yaHH! today is like an insect day...HHOOORAYY-_-'' i woke up..went to toilet
my eyes was DARN EFF fast..i spot a lizard..shucks..i look at it about 2 min..& its head turn to my direction...like duuhhhh..since when it notice i was watching it...haha :DD ookok..i climbed so high..i just hope it doesnt fell on my
head again..haha..& it doesnt want to come out..atlast..he squeezed into the thin hole i left ajar..& i squashed it! DAMMn!HAHAHHA:DDDDD
& a spider jump..ok..another insect..i sighh!..~i got no comment..
&& yahh SHIAATTTTT..THE LIZARD NVR DIE! it come bck in the toilet again..& now i stand on the toilet lid cover..soo stupid!i scold the lizard..!
i was like"i got exam you know!!!!! i need to be fast..in the end i lagged chasing after the lizard""!!!!! hahha..but i went off after that..im done :D
went off to j.e with love buds went study...
the librian shout the fuct at me..like WDH! i just sat at the floor..
how bout the others?? SHIATTT again~ i feel like going home..end up..
we study at LJS outdoor.. :) had fun! we teased lots of people..
haha..
came back home..otw the frog jump..jump jump...haha...
i went doen the staicasefrom 6th level..to reach my house & i saw a moth..
& luckyly it doesnt fly around..or i fuct run! hahaha.. :)))))

okok..& im really tired after all the insect day today.. -_-'' feewhhh
GUESS WHAT..

I EFFFFFING MISSSS MY BELOVED BOY :D

mood:dizzy
labels.:i miss my love:)

gdnight readers..post up again..
even tough i was messed up here & there..i wouldnt mind
throwing a smile..& squeezing everything into a bottle deep in me to make
everything right.. ;)
all that matter is you ;D

gdnight,
swetloves,lovers,heartbreakers,heartbroken,heartacher,

:D

2008-04-30T04:38:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY LOVE,I SWEAR

HEYY!! fresh new bloggie :p

okok...today..teacher lagged abit..sighh..but then
our form teacher was active today..**claps!**
ok...how was i feeling today??? today is wednesday..always a boredom day
for me.. :( gheess.. i just had fun with my friends normally..not to
extreme mood today..was fifty-fifty in mind..sleeping half way...
friends nabbed my pic when i dozed offf..sighh.~ no comment.. : maybe if
techers or friends were in my place to go thru my routine..lets see..
if they appear as tired as iam..hmmm...i just dozed off for awhile..
sighhh...cant stop tugging in class..ive tried my best to stay awake..
I SWEARRRRRRRRR!!! ARGH! i MISSED MY LOVE a DOZZENNNN today
he went for an interview:) YEAHH HE GOT IN:)
i hope he have a good rest :D as the place he choose was near to his home:)
veryveryvery happy for him.... :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
just looking forward till end of exams :) &&
ANOTHER OUTING WITH DEAREST LOVED;

im getting tired to hold on tight.
but to let go,& fall to deepest sleep,escaped,
& its another day the next morning onward:)

okie..post up again next time..
&& yes..

i loved this blogg name to the core!

DIARYINHERIA-WEPREDICTRIOT.BS :DD

2008-04-17T03:18:00.000-07:00

THURSDAY...
dead bored!

1 pathetic quetion please..! why am i always grounded..???
like some nuts?? sigh..my minds quite tight now...its so crammped..
& all i want is a great escape plan..,to end all boredness...& kill all pain...
but then..ive left with no choice..im out here not knowing how to figure it all out..everything was ouh so fine today...very very plain....indeed quite...
yahh..!i hate assembly..dont ask me why...i cramp like shiatt..haha..sat for 1 hr ++ they trying to make our butt like pancakes..hahaha :DDD lol... -_-''
okok..today nothing much happens...just normal..where my bitch keep
suffocating me with its hands...like everyday....one day if i really cannot breath,
i find you!..haha.. :)
buds bought preety dress today..greens the beam(:

& im fighting with stupid robots..& ask the robot to answer my quetion!
post up later!(:

ok im back!

i miss my love!
i swearr!!!((((((((:

bye!thats all!(:

2008-04-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

LETS TAKE THINGS SLOW,..SHALL WE..??

today is gloomy wednesday..feel like dying already..
teachers lesson for today is fregging BAD! cause all are so slack..:(

indeed..i felt like an orphans today.,. :) haha..in terms of, i slept like
everywhere..when listening,when sitting..hha..i slept everywhere..haha :D

funny though..but yet..i couldnt help..its not on purpose... :)
i feel like ive abandoned this blog..rest assured...i still got it now on
track..well yeah..theres not lotsa stuff to read about...
ouh ya..hahha..LOVE bought me my favourite ass cap...!..

i almost cried when i receive it. :DDDD yesterday just met my love...
& today..i sit all the way home...missing my love....ive gotta pull myslef
together dude! and yess...ive been on slippers for these days..blame my
blood,! cause it cant stop flowing...that stupid lameooo techer..ask for mc..

& i say "YAH! I GOT MC...!!" he said "wheere IS IT!!!!!???" i said... "I GAVE IT TO MONITOR...!" HE SAID" THE MC DOESNT WRITE ANYTHING..IT ONLY
WRITE HOW MANY DAYS MC..." I WAS LIKE ..are you stupid or what!!!haha
its like..mc of cause it tells you lah..howmany days ure not in school..

& he counted today date as well..from the the day i came bck school..after the mc... & said is not approved..OMG! HES BLIND..WHO IS HE TALKING TOO
JUST NOW..I THINK HE TALKS TO THE GHOST...Ouuhhwoow! I WAS NOT AT SCHOOL..

WHEN HE ASK ME WHERES MY MC A FEW MINS AGO..
LIKE wdh..! mc is for days ur absence for school..not count the days you are in school also ryte?? that means he wants to keep alot of paper in his bag..
& let each of our classmate to give mc before stepping in the class..
-_-'' so unreasonable..

okok...ithhink i was such quite inocent then,..who just doesnt talk much..
ivr grown much hope now..to stand out the way i am..
so,whatever i say for now onwards was me...& it doesnt matter if it
doesnt sounds ur way...

so..here i am..
blinding through smiles of people,
i agree,none was really true..cause what i see...was
not what i imagined...to be..
friends was just one word,u see/hear each time..
but it hides a million more to let you know..

yupp,friends forever..& those you can keep..
haha...
ok..
but is that what really lies in within??

labels: miss my beloved boy(:
mood:bored,confused,depressed.

moving on..~

2008-04-09T04:40:00.001-07:00

WEDNESDAY~

another day without my beloved boy...
if i could...i will hold on to the troubles & excessive pain that im going through
but then..i cant help it by telling you all my problems..i knew you might worry,.
but thats not what i want...ive not been going well with family these days..
& boy..since you left hometown..ive been through thick & thin by my own...
& you told me to dtay strong through whatever it is..& love...ive been waiting for ur return..(: the days are getting nearer..& im trying to put blind smile through
anything i see..cause it not only hides my pain...but my true personality too..
if anyone think that i dun behave like what a proper girl should behave,
well im sorry,& sad to say.. i dont live to please ppeople...i think that im ok..
even if i dont look like..(: & if anyone should think that i behave like a boy..
with no manners ahead.& i love fighting with my ass funny mates in class..
then,have it your way..cause i dun care much on what people...
THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES ALL MY FRIENDS!!(:
JOY,IM OK...HAHA(: IT STILL HURTS LIKE $%^^&*&
BUT,WHO SAYS IM NOT STRONG ENUF O ENDURE(:

i treasure my friends....
ps.i will try to hold on longer..even if it kills to take my breathe away~

2008-04-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

today is MONDAY...
seems kinda plain to me... :( cause ive been resting like the whole
%^&***#@! shiaty hours...but then feels good(: its not always,i got a rest like that... :p ive been watching STOMPyard with granny (: hehehe cool ehs?
i told her to watch with me..in the end she enjoy the show ubber much!
& ive been eating alot,...& playing comp..for the day....im thinking bout my beloved boy now..hehe(:

okok gtg!
dads home!

2008-04-06T20:56:00.000-07:00

MONDAY POST(:

& thank god im still alive..

going back to school after 3 days mc (:
im goin to miss my physicall fitness test today
& i hate it..

2008-04-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

continue from my saturday post..
the prayers was great!!(:

i get to see all my beloved cussins once again(:
esp all my cuss sis& brothers!
yea..we did crack up lameoo joke & tease
but most of all..
i really do miss our together ness..
:( i hope we could do it more often :)

& yes..
i love them all(:

ouh yes too!!
i'll be seeing my beloved soon!:)

nite2!

2008-04-04T20:15:00.000-07:00

WHEN YOU READ MY SATURDAY POST BELOW,

PAUSE MY MAIN BLOG SONG ON THE RIGHT SIDE ENTITLED

"STEREO-OE" AND PLAY THIS SONG..a better feel,..shall we? :)

2008-04-04T19:58:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY MORNING~

geesh,..i woke up eff early today..at 7:30..haha..this is the first time,on just a saturday day..where peole always wake up in the noon ;) ok..so,..today,... mates
left me a msg..telling me theres class today...at 10am..yes,agreed..it not too late
to tell me last min..as its only 8,by the time i replied..:D barely..i coulnt attend..
why..?? ok..this is why.. :) i have prayers as a whole cussins & family..coming together..it rarely done ok..but today is it!..well..,i still could feel..
the presence of dark memory flashing back at me again...that i could not
avoid..yet endure..
i really miss my beloved boy...its been days...i didnt get to see his face..
boy i really miss you :) that explains all :) ive been grounded..as usuall..
*clapp**clap*** & he understands that..yep..,he always do..:)

everytime..i imagined..what it feels like right beside you..~
and i know he feels it too...
boy..,how am i to fix things up.??
love,..if you could stay half of ur heart with me..
bet you feel my pain tooo..

and yes...my mates syahidah,sorry if i caused you
to sit outside of the class too..well..friends forgive & forget..i'd stay with you
too didnt i..? as tcher didnt notice me at first..i raise my hand up..

to be there with you too..

my beloved boy...,
how i wonder,...
what would it be like when school starts again..
im bearing it..~

& i know..,your way,much better than me..
more smarter..comparing to a dumb look like mine..
ure much2 sweeter than i am...u got good friends all around you,
comparing to a silent old me..
thats left dusty..~

& cause i know......, i knoww....~

loves,
me,silent rotting kid!geesh...
it wasnt because im mute,& i cant talk
its only cause, speechless..& none else more

2008-04-04T01:47:00.000-07:00

PAUSE THE BLOG SONG THAT IS PLACED ON THE RIGHT

SIDE,ENTITLED "STEREO-OE" & PLAY THIS SONG WHILE READING

THE POST BELOW,PERHAPS...A BETTER FEEL..shall we?

2008-04-04T00:43:00.000-07:00

HEAVENLY FRIDAY~..........

seemed like ive much to tolerate about now...well,people may not
seemed to know or even realise..that ive already have far too much mess to
keep in about...but then..if problems seemed to be crashing in..all i could do
is to streched out my hands..& hold on to all the damn stuffs in..i cant
be bothered bout teachers picking up people they dont like..& pushed them aside..preety much..like" its up to thier mood" if theyre good,they treat you good,if theyre mad..so be just like how they treat you...its getting harder
evrytime..to keep understanding...but ,id keep trying hard too,to understand
the hall way of another story..i agree,ive been sleeping in class recently..
but then..,i swear it was not on purpose..! i just fell out off sight suddenly..
but it was also only less than 15 min..not more than that..i was trying to put effort to stand my eyes..i was bearing the pain,the problems, deep inside..
& i got a pat in my back,to have been rewarded a suspension..how do i feel?
seriously....do you understand that..??family have been pushing on me hard
these few days...despite of the old crack up problems we used to have as a family,and now..they are trying to get me back on my track,to be a usuall person
like i used to..ive been bragging for days,cause i realise,half of the usuall
me was already ruined by previous attempt.& cause i got another half left
its a bit hard to move on by a little..but i was trying..i seriously was..
my beloved,help me a whole bunch..he is even trying to pull me back together
to start a new,a fresh one..& a better one of course...but all i did was
lagging...and lagging...like a n old one...if i could have a million pleses to give you..,i would have started recording my apology now..& my beloved boy,and only the handsome one to my eyes...,if ure reading this..im promised to
put myself back on track!:) i will be the one whom you want me to be:)
i will push on harder..even if i have to dragg myself to reach destination..
but look at the matter love...hows my teacher?,my class..???
i know its not the reason...but yes..ure true....
i love you,...& i would do it over again...

and because i loved you,
i see you as my one and only..
keep me up with ur guidiance..
send me ur truckloads of encouragement
i love you boy...

i wont go home without you(:
cause u always send me back home upright to my doorstep:)
& give me a last kiss b4 going to bed..

im stronger,with you... ~:')

2008-04-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

ive been writting this post 3 time..& i wrote back my long story again.

but the post is preety shit enuf to dissapear! WOOOW! great!

preety much sad storyies i wrote there..

maybe another time..i retype it again..:)

enjoy the song!

i love my readers!:) weeess!

2008-04-01T05:54:00.000-07:00

despite sitting down here..browsing through thick & thin of life..
i realise being the originall you,will be the only smartest thing people could
only show..i used to be half on breath..when i go through tough moments
i have to pull on myself together..yet if my smiles covers a whole lot more than my real identity itself..its not because of my weakness,neither bcos i was pretending to go on strong..its bcos,having to realise from this marbled eyed
that seemed all so watery evrytime :) walking to doorsteps of classrooms..
& to sit on my chair to start studying,allmost tugged me,falling flat to the ground,as if i was forced..NO..it was not about giving up in studies..
its bcause,to face problems..that keep reaching on to you evrytime,evn,any
where you go..u feel helpless.. i didnt expect much,like kissing me on my forhead b4 i used to go to sleep evrynight,or even a simple well done
from your own family...that was like centuries ago..
i felt one part of torn pages was missplaced..just to give it a nice finishing
story..
sometimes..it just feel like,some one tuggings ur hair,
telling you this & that,being far dragged away..

but you know what...
just one thing...

at least..i got one thing i could hang on..
my one love...

:')

aman..

plug on PEOPLE!
goodnight readers...:)
this is the last night song for you guys..

PRESSPLAY!
DOWN HERE!

2008-03-29T00:57:00.000-07:00

FINALLY...,after waiting for like @#$#%&^*& hours..
mom called fetching me out (:

my saturdays=shits..pile of them.... -_-''

2008-03-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

well welllwelll!!!!

ok...straight to the point to dayy..

hahaha...okok..

today is..ermm..ya..SATURDAYYYYY..

people is going out..like usualll..am i right..???.....

WRONG!tooot..! hahaha im not..haha..ok..aha..

ya...O_O .you know why..? o_O..im officially grounded like some nut..but,luckily..these powerfull ears dont turned deaff,.,.after all the nagss..

nagging proof..heheh..rater than water resistant..you know??haha..OKOK!

im half ass mad today,..i cant go out..i cant sit still...im into some snacks

but doesnt have one.. sobs...ookok..so this high-tech thing..i mean the

computer lah..has been keeping me company...for the whole shity 2hrs..

i dont really know the reason why..people need computer..

do you have brains? haha..well all do..i mean for research & stuff..its fine..

but..wouldnt it better to go live searching..than typing ur day at home??

i dun want to be so into political for the com thing..hahaha:D

i cant meet my sweet ancem boy...goshh..

i got lots of meets up with friends..& i cant even made up thier promises..!goshhh..im bad..

rain rain..lalallala........okok..i half madd..

the picture of the sunrise above is heavenly taken by me..& its at east coast early morning during chinese newyear!BAMMED! ahaha..!okok//& the rest is all related to other stuff..byebye:)

ouh ya..

hadnt been posting..sorry guys..

so here it is..a lame one!HAHAHAHAHHA:DDDDD

okok..

TUNED IN!REMEMBER!!

i love all my readers..

cos..??

THEY ARE FREAKIGN AWSEEEEMMM!!

bye!

2008-03-23T04:07:00.000-07:00

& if i could try running...
i woudnt have a planned on where to go...
if i try to put on a smile on my face..
its because i want you to be near me,always...
& if i leave you text messages on your hp,..its because..in my mind
theres only you...
if i hugged you...
i wouldnt want to ever let you go..never..
if i cry..for no reason or else..
its because im confused..i need you right here..
or even....
confused..
if you feels the way i do...

if i could only let you know..
or..let you understand..

if i only knew the answes rite infront of my eyes.,..

2008-03-22T02:10:00.000-07:00

& yes!

i have to agree on that,ive not been blogging or even updating

anything,... :D hols are just packedwith meetings & all the crazy

puzzeled stuffs okie.. ;) but for now..its over for the being time..

& i could blogg now..! YEHAH! hahahaa! okok..

so like normall & usuall..HOWW AREE YOUUUU!!!!!

WHATSSSUPP PEOPLE!!YOU DOING FINEE?? & again if its not

great or any stuff.. please... haha..do share..

my links are give on the right side of the post..entitled readers & me (:

ok,.hows my day?

im like heads on top off the world...spinning..veryy dizzy..

very sickkoo... but i had funn with my special someone(: veryf unn :D

so..from now..thats my new punching bag.,.my everything..

even..my whole diary for my own...i got your back & i know his got mine(:

i agree i have been texting like operator..

& if you think its kinda formal rite here..you have to both agree&

disagree... cos if id had funn.. & i both didnt..i got some problems keep poping up everywhere okie..but thats just fine...

cos..i dont need to dweel on stuff..& even if id had to tell..

its like repeatin it all over again.. :D

some times it rains...

sometimes theres sunshine..

it confused me all the time....

even people hearts..

reaction..

just everything..

alright..alright..haha..my tone is changing..hahaha

okok..

just keep staying tuned okie!

if ure a GIRL..& YOU LOVE SHOPPING..

VISIT MY BLOGSHOP..THAT IS ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE POST(:

CLICK THEM AWAY,!

2008-03-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

THHURSDAY

still grooving dont ya?? :)

thursday was an outing with both loved friends
weather was bad though..but we manage to have fun there!
well the rain was not a bad idea of playing games such as volleyball
withh all my lame asses!hahaha :D
cooling ur feet & bury them deep inside the cold sand.. :)))
the tides was high! but who cares! :)we still had fun!
my lame ass friends wanted to push dear fren
zhiying..hahaha..but he came up with good excuse
"dont! dont!!! i got hp in my ppocket & saying it inchinese,&told my friends that
its true..its true..hahhaha.."
nice escape..
despite of having half of my day spoiled & drowned for a moment,while waiting for the tram...because of some reason
that i needt find it important to share!
but say WHO??!!!im not a weaklink
im staying strong with or without you..
even if im dwelling...its worth after..
den keeping shut enduring..
headed to VIVOcity..browse awhile..&

went home!~
i gt an elmo baloon to stay happy :)
childish but..so WHAT..hahah:)
im happy :)

to my beloved friends & readers..
i love all of you..
:)

stay tuned here ok!:)

2008-03-12T01:04:00.001-07:00

TOMOROW IS GOIN TO BE A GREAT OUTING ;)
WITH FRIENDS!& EVERYONE WE LOVE :D

shall post up tomorow..
yes
!i love my readers..
SO...
WATCH THE STEP UP 2 MOVIE ON THE RIGHT HAND CORNER
OF MY PLACE.

ENJOY!!

always stay tuned okie!! ;)))

lovess...,

2008-03-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

WEEKENDS...

HEYYheyyheyyy!~readers :)

how uve all been doing??fine??or the other way round maybe..??

well..dun wanna find out or ask about that.. hehe :)

but..if anything just went wrong..

you can share it with anyone..around you,families..

or better..ME! hahaha :D im serious! hahaha! ive gotta make a new link for this

sites ;), gonna inform you readers..later onwards.. (re: www.readers-and-me.blogspot.com )

but first..let me tell you all a little ehre & there bout my

so called "dead" weekends..first of all..

ive been rotting.. like HOW??maybe u wanna ask..

LIKE EVERYDAYYYY!!! but here goes without saying..

places here are all so bored..& sumtimes quite farr from our

home places..indeed a yes! having plans..just wasnt suitable for me this hols..

as everything is all packed up!

subs are killing me! but still here typing..not dead yet..

so..basically..

just leave some msg at the taggies corner..

& I'LL PROMISE TO REPLY IT AS SOON AS I CAN ;)

stay tuned!

& dun forget to request on ur favourite songs ;)))))

loves,

byebye

*stay cool,eat ice..hahaha jkjk :D

2008-02-04T01:09:00.000-08:00

PS : I MISS YOU MY CUZZIN SISTER YYYYYY
shall meet you again&&HAVE THE BESTEST DAY EVER!
IMY!

this pucca cartoon was on air just now :) gehe!
ninja is my favvv listed!

PEOPLE OUT THERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

how uve been doin??? fine/gd moderate??

aha..well,let me speak on what i think bout the whether today..verry..coooling! :/

haha,to start off today,..i was late..but..erh well,i wasnt late cos i had an excuse..

but the excuse isnt valid..& he just had me by his luck today,cos i was still sick..

& i could not violent aound with him..or show my tantrums....or have the mood neither lauf

around with people... :( but jyeah..im stillgood down here..

ok,long time since i posted pics..but heres a few.. hah!:D

i just ate donuts,so i tot of posting it as well :)

aha..

today,is just plain bored..so i had nothing to talk much about.. :)

till here only for today :))))

keepp tuning in right here ;)

the day is up to you now!

enjoy!~

2008-02-03T06:10:00.000-08:00

SUP!SUP!people..~

dont be surprised,i just only got home& logged in to blogger now to do updates.. :D
so,..where do i go i just now ehs?? :) i went to bugis with dearest mum & sister.. :))
i intend to shop around there.. but hen..after i reach there with mum in the first place..& sis is otw
there to mit us,it started raining :'((( but hey!mum clever lahs..she brought umbrella..ella..ela eh~eh.
hmm..ok..where was i ..??~
ouh yes,we went to kfc to eat lunch while waiting for sis & the rain rain rain..
well,jyeah..i still intend to go out evn when im sick.. must be crazy,.. :)to tell you all
whats happening in bugis is.. i couldnt explain much except this expression : O!!
its bloodyy packed! veryvery..its like you can stop in the middle for like 10 mins man!
damn hot..with the smeelllss all..hahaha!serious!
go there & check i out urself.. play safe pleese...go during weekdays..evn sunday isnt a good day..
&& evn if it is weekdays,people sure rush there after school or either workplace..
1 thing that pissed me off today is the changing room..
they sell the their stuff like,..eg, it cost $28 bucks..& its written there in the tag..
& i couldnt see it in the 1st place..so i ask.. & the lady boss replied $29
den suddenly,mum saw it..den mum say she cheat..so i just close one eye..
so i decided to try it on..& it doesnt fit !she say i can sure wear it one..so i intend to use another changing room,..
but then the sales girl says..i can go use the next room one..den i just go on..& say ok..
the curtain like v thin..& the fan is blowing like so strong..& the curtain fled..& theres one big chair inside..
the changing room v small..vvvvvvvvvvvvv uberrrrrrr smalll...!!!
got chair inside..after trying half of it..i banged the chair..& retured back their stuff..
haha..silly lah to react like that,i noe lah..but ar.. v pissed oredy..

so heres part of my sunday..its late night now..
im goin to have some rest :)

i leave it to you readers!
goodnights!

ALWAYS STAY TUNED WITH ME ALRIGHT READERS! :DDD

2008-02-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

JUsT SAY THE WORD,& I'LL beTHERE runningYYYY

hey,sup,sup,sup!
i didnt attend school yesterday..that is on friday..
felt really sick..i mean veryvery.. :) evn on saturday..im home..with granma!
my only love i have :) i didnt have any intentions to go out either..
seems like,friends are enjoying themselves..how bout you readers????
haha??:DD if you had fun..its great! but if not..& u felt like staying home..
its a good choice either..cos the weather seems bad..
rains pouring..sunshine appears for awhile only..u cant go out & play in the sun..
in the rain is much cooling too :DD haha!!
so,readers...ive only got a short post
for today..despite of being sick..veryvery sick..
i leave this out to you to end you weekends ok!

this song is really amazing,
here it oud as well kehs! (:

2008-01-29T00:59:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLEEEEEE!!

ITS tuesday afternoon.. ;) how do ya'll feel man??haha..

hope ure all doin fine okehs?haha :))) today is such a very rainy rainy

rainy rainy days.. :(( but it fact im home with dearest graqndma..to spend my tuesday with

:) isnt it great eh??haha..i noe its kinda bored..but..having her that is my grandma..close to

me is sucha wonderfull thing to be right here with :D

basiccally,i tell you what..i actually planned to go out..haha:D but i didnt want to..

but i want to go out..but then i didnt..cos i wanna stay home :)

im a very good person for today.. :DDD hehes!

today in school...i feel like..just like other normall school days..but then..

today..i scribbles many people tables.. :'DDDDDfun jyeah!haha :)

i draw lots of character..esp patrick star..you noei love them..

esp patrick star..he is dumb..& makes it quite speciall to me.. :) gah!

okok..ive just finish watching the story..les choristes..

a french story..a wonderfull great story..that make hearts touched..bcos of

a wonderfull teacher..who change then :'(( sobs! hahah!

jkjk! rating 5/5 stars! very nice!

well today..i felt kindof..

BACK TO BASICS..

SO I TURNED THIS SONGS ON..TO TURN YA'LL BACK BASICS AGAIN :D

one ofmy fav listed..! ;)

have a great tuesday ahead.

just stay tuned alright!

well,i miss my readers ;) much..!

byebye!

2008-01-25T16:59:00.000-08:00

yumm bubble gum i l0oike!

hey people,.. :)hows life doin for you all??

great?or bad??

well,the first things you all should noe..that..there is alwways ups&

down in life that are not what we expect or want actually..

but then..if we went thru a whole lot of bad stuff,you may learn & grow at the same time..

to realise whta life really is.. yes,lifes not fair..but humans live to make mistakes,to love

to be sad..& have different emotions..for one reason..

to realise opn what ure doin..& even..to understand the truth..

lets say you got dump..by someone..

tell yourself..dont just stand there & cry..erh..well..ok..

you should cry to let go of ur feelings first..& then tell urself just dont stand there & do nothing..

maybe..an outing with friens..chiling a moment..wel..you noe stuffs like that..

you can do it all night..& make you feel lot better kk :)

people gone thru heart brokens before ryte..

just wait for time to heal you..& start back again..k hunnies/darlings out there.. ;)

well,the past few days of school,really tore my socks man..

been running here & there..even go school must run..to catch bus.. -_-''

asshole!haaha :D

the past few days are also tiring..

& yesterday..was just an happy outing with dearest girl yl,

today..the only thing that upset me is..work!!! -_-'''

arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! :00000000

theres one pathetic..who cant stop disturbing me,..!!!

help people!

:((((((((((((((((((

mayeb i should karate the person..

i dont give chance already ar!!

to all my readers..

today is..SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

GO OUT & HAVE SUM FUNN :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

IF NOT,BUY SOME OF UR FAV TREATS & ENJOY VCD'S AT HOME!!!

lots of love,

ira,/el;)

2008-01-21T00:48:00.000-08:00

hey people!! whatsupp everyone?? :)

today feels like a bright sunny afternoon,.. (: no rains okeh..hhaaha..

well now..im still not home yet..still slacking at dearest kathryn house :')

most probably that happen today is..

i got up at around 2:30 am in the morning..while evryones soundly asleep,

most currently,when i wake up during that period of tyme..something must not be right..

so i stared at the celing..& guessed that today's gonna be a sad bad day..

well im not purposely to think that way,but then..

i just dont know why..people you shud noe ryte..like you ur self will get that type of feeling..

erh..you noe you noe what i meant ryte?? well btw..yup..

it turned bad..i lost everything..like erh..my important files & thos kinda stuff..

parents screaming..yelling at me..& i started drenching myself with tears..

while they are suppose to help me solve prob...

i feel kinof burden to them aniway..but whats the worst??

i bang the gates..& run all the way to bustop with tears..& sadness feeling deep down..

i couldnt understand what life meant for me..

i cry like evrywhere..haha..the bustop..in the bus..

the classroom.."but luckily no one saw." henngg -.-''

but after awhile..i calmed down..& feel muchmuch better.. :D

sighs..so noe..

im taking a break from all my cries just now heh :D

im feeling all lot better..

how you readers???

better tagg me aryte :))

im looking forward to chat with ya ;)

have a gd evvvveening!!!!

too-dless!

2008-01-18T06:56:00.000-08:00

YCLICK AWAY!

hey again people!

firstly,goodnights :) to all :DD
hows ur day been doin??fine??

well today my days at school are like..
1.5/5stars.. :(

i felt plain today..trust me..really plain..
luckily..my teacher doesnt mess my mood up,or i will pack all my stuff..
& go home.. :) haha..well.. seems like today i felt plain godamned bored..

i didnt knew that things were much more fun when i had cca just now with all my little
juniors..the new batch of sec ones have smiles on thier faces..
they felt welcum there..& i felt happy too okey..
in the fact that..i enjoy my times spent weith them also aniway.. :D ghees :))
i have to work tomorow..
sighhs... :'((
im tired..seriously..i wish i wouldnt be tired.. :'(
well seriously..i was suposed to go library today..&finish my sketches..
but then..i was tired & slept like 7hrs + already..gosh..& im still tired now..
& planing to go back to ZZZzz later..

im watChing MARKSMAN.

a man who is very accurate in shooting while he is on war..

the world depend on only one person that is him..

imagine how great if you are the only one the country depend on..&

the terrorsit are all aiming on you.. ghees..must be hard..haha

rated 5/5star..

i have to say its real awsem..seriously. :)

so....if you have the time..rent this movie.. :)

ur mouth wll go gugu-gaga..cos,its quite impressing you noe ;)

his courage & everything..

ok,my head is spinning..

ouh man,cant recall much things..

but then,will post up tomorow kies.. :)

people,plesee take care..

hahaha..

gdnights readers..

twilight..twilight..

2008-01-17T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey people...yes again :)

im late again also...for school.. daily routine... -_-''

i have to run 20 rounds people..!! things goin mad for me i gotta say it man..haha..

feeel asleep 3 times in class..i wonder whats been keeping me so tired ehs?? i myself dnt

know bout it man,.. :((..

i was in just luck..not to get suspension..well stoopid me lah..i wore the wrong timing

on my hand..well sometimes ive gotta admit.. its hard being me..

imnot sure how to make it any easier..when people are pushing me on harder evrytime.

suggestion??hehs :D

well..how ya'l day been doin?? fine?? hope evryting was smoothe kay :)

todays weather was fine..bright & sunny..way down hot today..heheh..haha

been bored anyone??haha

okie..

now im watching american idoll..

hahhahha..funnny lah...!!!HHAHAHAHHHHHHHHH!!!!

the expression all...

simon says:you said to me you are already an american idol??why is that so??

contestant:because..i already feel like im like one...& i dont need to be a american idol cos i already am...hahahha..

& the she growlss..

its damn2 funny..

&a big guy with superb mini voice..shaking his heads..with the'yea..hehyeahehehe..'hahahah

ok stop it man..haha.. :DDD

& some happy faces off to hollywood ;)

well sure feel great ryte.. :DDDDD

OOOoooo..off to advertisement already..

ok,lets talk bout how i progress in maths clas...

well i definitely agree..i dunt understand actually..but then i got 2 smart tutor :)))

luckyly.. -_-'' iam very gong!.

i will ask this & that..i wonder how they feel bout it man..haha..

schools doin great except for the dnt stuffs here & there you know.. heh he. :D

well i hope it will be over soon..urmm..lets see..6 more months?? :(((

but can say i love that subject :)

ive been biting people nowadays..

wonders whats happening to this dumb me..haha :D

beware..hahahah..monster .. :DDDDD

ok till here..will post up really soon okehs..

still love my readers.. :0))

takecare you all ok..

& goo-goo nights!! ;)

2008-01-16T06:53:00.000-08:00

ITS LATE NIGHT

THINGS GETTING RIGHT EACH DAY... :)

im happy that im healing deep inside.. :D

im looking forward to abright bright day tomorow..

hope no one will hurt this fragile feelings again..

& if i'd meet that special someone one day..

i wish it will be extra special & love me a million more.. :))

im kidding..,that will nvr happen ;)

GOODNIGHT!!!!!

ILOVEMYREADERS!:)))))

2008-01-15T02:09:00.000-08:00

OK YAH!

ITS RAINING..& ITS STILL POURING NOW.. :(((
SCHOOLS A MESS TODAY.. :'((

BUT ANYWAY..
MY DEARY FRIENDS..
YOU KNOW I'LL GOT YA BACK..

hope tomorow's a better beginning..

& w'ill still act like we dont know what to do.. :D
&WE ALLWAYS PISSED THE CLASS..

i felt better..going on stronger..
i still breathe the stuckness inside..im goin down..but rising up everytime i fall .. :')

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUSSCHANGG!! :DDDD

OUH YAHH!!,, I WASNT LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY(:
CHEEERRSS!!

2008-01-14T03:17:00.000-08:00

its like been a long tyme since i even poosted..

well..blogger is my second diary,just that diary isnt supposd to be exposed anyway..

hahaha..& iam my own diary,bcos others where cud be found.. :)

schoolss days tend to be kindof hmm,..stressing..&even more actually..

coming school late was my daily routine! & i hate that!!!..i DONT WANT TO BE LATE!!!!

just that the damn slow bus is laging.. -_-''..guess what..!

I GOT DETENTION.. :( bravo.. :(((((( a good person get detention.. :((

i came late like almost everyday.. :( busbusbusbusbus!!!!!!!!!erhh!!!

since i got very suay,it rain like cats & dogs from the view out of the detention room.. :(

i wanna go home actually.. :(

my thought is like freaking messy :( ..& i fall a sleep there.. ouh ya..im not the only one..

i went detention with dearest stella :')

since my life has been fooled by a while..& feeling stupid & dumb for a few seconds..

i just want to let you know..by a bit of scratch right there, in my heart.

you got me thinking,like everyday...to choose you was in a disguise mistake..

i felt sorry for this heart of mine.. & not me..but my heart.to fall for this greatest trick.

IF I COULD WASH MY HEART WITH ACIDS..

IT WOULD BE MUCH MUCH BETTER :D

& hey,im going strong..

to turn back was not an option for me anyway..

im glad you threw me off..

cos it feels like rubbish.

DEAREST FRIENDS ARE GREAT..

WE PISSED THE CLASSROOM ANYWAY..

& i vandalise the desk with flouresent green :DD

gosh my fav :)))

2008-01-05T07:24:00.000-08:00

hello my peeps outdere:)
double smiles :DD
gahgah!ouh ya..went to fork & spoon after the cca display occasion..
heh.. :D i ordered lontong..nyumm lahh..& airconditioned..fuuuh best.. ;p
until i slept there like 1hrs plus..with my frens lah..or i will be agundu ryte..
went jurong lake park nxt..played under the sun..swings are great,just that the tyres are blocking..we saw our school "paikia"ehemm"" there too..just sit there & watched them shriek & shriek..ears pain..!!urgh!..the weatheres are moodless..
it keepss changing..& till it rain cats & dogs..
shiet.. :((((
we ran & ran all over to protect urself..
finnally all drenched fully!at the bustop..
thanks to mr clever...the great escape idea..!

the countdown the past days were great kies..
well for me..its more like over nite & clubs all the way..in & out man..

well heres a vids..
but not so clear as it dark.ard 2+ & were stilll dancing yaww man..
hahahaha

nitenite!!

2008-01-02T01:07:00.000-08:00

so here i am.. 11pluss waiting for the last train to went by..

seductive MCCAFES :)) :DDDDthumbs up pleesee :DDDDDD

vivo place,snap this unclear picture,& btw its upside down..hehhe :)

while having my lonely break..

beutifull streets at nights ;)

THE CENTRAL SHOPPING CENTRE DECO :)

heres the wrapped presents to santa:) hehheh

well,these are all old pictures that havent been posted:)

the recent post that i have in mind may not have anyn picture at all i guess..

so this is the bunny that accompany me while im working..

well i do miss this little ass stuffs :)

& went home ard 2+ in the morning..

& yes,i have to work like siaoo..

tough job,tough job..

:')

2008-01-01T07:58:00.000-08:00

SCHOOLS TOMORROW,
& IM NOT READY FOR THAT.. !! :((((((((((((((((

posting up tomorrow
real soon :)

gdnight!!
iWANTTOsleep&iRONclothesZZzZzz

2007-12-19T11:35:00.000-08:00

THRUSDAY 3:46 PM

im STILL AWAKE!!!
hahaha..okok..been home late lately..
christmast is near..busy busy.. :((((
SICKKsickkkSICKKK!!!!
had fun with my asswhole at night..
on wednesday..met up with hy,lim hao & ady
they pretended to be a customer & ask evrything in the shop,the best thing is..the 3 asswhole want to ruin my bussiness..they said the alarmclock spoil lah this lah blah lah,..
break time met them again..
they faggg...while i eat my chocolate croissant while the lim kpo want to eat oso..
damn joker..lim got all the shit on his pants..hahaha...
while we make a fool of hy..
he at there.. ka****...ci*** hahaha
make fun of the little boy & girl...saying they are making up..lol.. :)))

while today..THURSDAY
all my 3 LOVABLEasswhole..
come & visit me to my work place..nice ryte..we browse ard first..
headed to fast food later..
funfunfun!!joke ard..& more!!!!
im happy being with all my assWHOLE!!!!
:DDDDDDDDD

selamat hair raya haji!
but im working.. :(

2007-12-17T11:52:00.000-08:00

it will be the very same me again,
when i see you me & everybody elses.
it was just another beautifull beginning..

THANKS FOR THE BITHDAY WISHES..
I LOVE YOU ALL :))))))
10 DECEMBER :D

2007-11-28T08:14:00.000-08:00

THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE
& NOW ITS SO CLEAR..

WONDERFULL THINGS THAT MAKES LIFE GREAT..

NOTHING CAN CHANGE ABOUT IT..

IT IS THE BEST FEELING..YYYY

iNnOCEnce is BRILLIANT.

2007-11-17T09:09:00.001-08:00

HELLO,a really goodnight to all the readers..
been a long tyme since i posted yeahs??ok well..life have been really difficult for me..
to the extreme..you know what??..i dont quite really miss school anyway..
but..maybe just a little ;) perhaps..eh??haha..ive been working non-stop already..
its like my second home i cud rely on..ive been always waiting for him to call me..
but then i think that the phone have already stops ringing..for quite sometime..
sometimes i get quite confused about things evolving around me actually..now the fact is...
the only fact is..for now..no ones there for me..the last time you called me was when,
i called you at night..& out of sudden ur tone changes,..& didnt evn say the sweetest word u used
to say to me for quite a very long tyme..i was totally shocked..that when i said bye,you
are just nice to end..so i guess it wasnt my bet ryte??so i just hope...ONLY..hoping..
the answers will fell directly to my hands..& tell me whats going on..i just need sometime with you..but could you spare me?? i need sometime to let you listen..are you there for me..??
i just need that time..for you..to come bck..& say..you always love me..
or just say what you wanna say...cos for the time..i told you..only you..who was tere in every beat..did you just make me fade out of ur heart??
where are you..?you had fun..but ive been through hell..you enjoyed ur times with friends..
but i was in & out of house working everyday & crying now & then after work.
so tell me..whose there for me..??
ANYONE??tell me..just who was the greatest person who was there for me??
i tell you who..
ONLY ME..MY OWN SOUL..MY OWN OTHER HALVES
WHO KEEPS ME GOING..ENCOURAGING MYSELF..
HELPING MY OTHER HALVES NOT TO GIVE UP.&
CRYING ALONE AT HOME..& ONLY A PILLOW TO SHARE & ABSORB MY TEARS WHEN I NEED IT..tell me who was there..??
onlyme..
i was the one..who cried.all these time..
& was there myself..

allah was there with me..
guiding me to stay strong..
where have you all been??

:')

2007-11-11T07:16:00.000-08:00

hey everone..yea..long tyme since i post up didnt i???..
these few days..i just felt like all the broken pieces.one question..
i didnt noe how to fix my heart up..i dont know which one goes in the right places..
so there i was confused..for all the things in the world..i just wanna thought that i
wanna go far away from life..but how??stupid things occur..but soon i realise..
it was just another broken ending..who am i..i dont know now..i was disfigured.all of the sudden.
i was drowning the past days..now & then..i cried..but one thing..

i cried,not because,
i was WEAK
i cried not because
im afaid
i cried not because,
im useless..

FOR EVERYTHING THAT I CRED FOR..
its because..
part of it was misplaced.
& i cant breathe or helped my self with only my another half.
& it was hard going on with the half hearted..
& i longed to wait for my another half to be recovered..
and stay in place where it used to be..so i can start beating again..& veins will hold on to
one another & not letting go,..for once i lost my other half of heart..
maybe i placed it somewhre i cant remember..
so if i did any mistake..
i agree my mind was a mess & misplaced.
there i was..
a silly one..& everything bad one..
& now i can only wish that my other half of damage heart soon recover
or to lost my other half heart,sot hat i have none..
& went away..just like where sands meets the oceans.
& return to where i came from..

my only hope..
to be happy.
& thats it..

2007-11-04T07:53:00.000-08:00

hey me again :D
ya lol..:p ok..hehe! today was.ermm..ouh.ya correct! sunday..
7 more mins to monday! :)i was supposed to work today..but i have to agree..long tyme since i spent quality time with my cousins..i hardly have time for her & other of my cousins..:( bad ehs? haiss..its not that i dont..
just that time was harsh for me..with no one to turn too..so there i was stuck up in fairytale..a bad one i mean hahaha..so decided to go out with her today and didnt turn for work..we went like all sorts of shopping centres..from the filthry rich one to the teenage life..
i can see the luxury of living for some.i think it shud be heavens ryte??
i ate BK!burkerking..i ate turkey bacon..ok yum..just that didnt expect the bacon was hard..hahaa! XP nice..!thumbs up!:)))
she ask me ate the leftover fries that is stil like alot..but i still eat..
cos im hungry these few days..heh!:D went out && buy mint chocolate chip..yumm..that IS REALLY DELICIOUS!!!:) i want more ice cream!!
ten thumbs up!!!!!!!!go grab it..very nice!!
we went like dunnoe how many shops oready..i still enjoy fun with her
cos me and her=craps.all we speak are craps..
but i did annoy her..i stomp her feet..heh!she screamed!:)))))
yey!!ghehehe!!!
7+ we head hommie..pictures coming soon..:) erms heh..tomoro??
haha..
she wanna catch scoobie doo..so headed home;)
byebye readers im tired!!='X veryy...
but i still cant sleep..dnt noe why...
but still byebye..
SONGsCOMING RIGHT UP TOMOROW..only here on
www.the-musicsites.blogspot.com

ouh ya!hello MONDAY!!! ITS MONDAY NOW..:)

2007-10-30T06:30:00.001-07:00

hey people..:')

been long since io post up yeahs..days have been ok for me..

around there lah.ive been tired all round..but not complaining k..

mum& like everyone is bugging bout my work..saying its far..

i really have no time to argue bout this..but heres this,i already ask from the nearest,to any outlet i cud find..you noe singapore..ryte?you noe my age ryte?so its a bit dificult to get an opportunity to work..but i was in a luck..just lucky enuf to get called..& receive a job..u understand?i will just

take any chance ..for the moment..& see if the nearest outlet will call me

if i didnt help mum & dad..so that they wun be worrying bout paying my

school stuffs when the year cums ryte?will some one come there &

work for you & give you thier money,,or maybe money fall out from trees.

if i didnt help myself..who will..?ok..its hard k..i agree.

but im not complaining.i choose to do that.so i must bear,.to be hard

working was my aim.& stop depending on people was my other aim.

i could tell you,I MISS THE WHOLE LOT OF MY FRIENDS & LOVES.

ALL OF THEM..i find that time for them or any of us are harsh..

well i tell myself this.I'LL KEEP HANGING ON....i stay just like the way i used to.& promise i wont be any different when you c me..

i wanna cry....

im goin to sleep now thank you.

i hate to drown myself with tears.i feel sick..

gdbye readers..

2007-10-24T00:12:00.000-07:00

ok,lets start.
quite a windy day today..waking up early in the morning,was one of
the hardest thing i tried to do ;) but i was in time..i mean "just"in time:)
i assemble as normal in the parade square..blablabla...many didnt turn up ouh WOW!!!i shud have slept oso ryte? huhu..~today was like a very
FREE day for me..sighss!i hate free day..i would always spent the free time..with MY love,or friends..or any other..but,i dialled evry single number.but none was there for me..:( i dialled love number..but
it has no signal.i try & try..like duno how many TIMES..arghh!!!
i thought were goin out today :( ok..none wants it..FINE.!full stop.
i cud say this is my only tinnie weenie free day..cos i will have work..
& on hols,i wud like to request for everyday work!& when i ask people out. none wants..:(( i was TRIPLE sad!very! luckyly it doesnt rain!
or it was my bad day..ok..i washere, like duno wad..stuckup
typing my thoughts to clear them off.. :') my freaking mind is so frustrated!i dun really noe what frens wants actually.why are they blaminbg ech other.wel..i dunt care whu evn start it..
but i thought all was over..&.no more craps bout them anymore.
i dunno what she's doin actually..she was once my very gd fren
but hating ech other doesnt solve..STOP KAY!
stop all arguments.!!this doesnt work.!!!ok stop..im burning higher now!
im relaxing..that i cant seems to relax.!!
im bugging for songs now..cos it makes me feel good..
hehehs!now im laughing..lol ;p
i will post my junk..maybe next tyme..i mean my picture :)

HEY!you noe what..this song just makes me feel good!
heres for you..the readers!,the ladies!
ive got my comp & my sponge bob pillow!lalallaXP

here's for all you readers out there,
only on the-musicsites.blogspot.com
keep groving!

YYYYY

2007-10-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

hey readers!

hows ur weekends cuming??

mine was like darn tired kay..:( i did have fun..but i tried my best..! :)

ok smiled!haha..today was..ouh yah TUESDAY..wake up ard 10 plus..

shoud have wake later..but sis played songs on hp...so i wake up

in mid of no where..off my bed..stared at the mirror..&saw my

clumsy face..its like"gd morning"!hahaha.
& guessed what??im SICK?!!!i miss school real bad..
i miss seeing my frens..MY CRAP BUD!MY ASSHOLES!MY GIRLFREY
evn the chineses!ok..today i miss the whole world. :')
yesterday was fun..gt out of hse ard 2pm to celebrate raya with frens
i wore..green earth..so there i was in green!:) i LOVE GREEN.!
lol ;p! &returned home ard 6+ the raya was really fun..i get to go with my lurved ones ;) frens are funny..alot of them..is like they are united of
talking lots of crap..&bullying..heh!if i was them..i would bully harder..
&laugh out hard oso..hahahah!after went home..i changed & went out of hse again..guess where im goin?*************************************
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*ok BUGIS!-alone!(-_-'')
ok WOW!!im a dumb clumsy chiken.i went there alone..&people are staring all over..wuuuu~scaryy..its like,.the world is stepping on you!
u feel like getting smaller..&smaller..i banged everywhere i go..
& i was like.."sorry"..."sorry""im reallie sorry.the angkong kia people..
happen to have them there with grps..the bengs..allhave..alot lah.
but then..i saw people having diff personality..i was amazed..how they react..&&everything..there i was..seeing it with my real eye..
of humans in earth nowadays..ouh ya..
ALOT OF THANKS TO MISS KATHRYN DIANE.!
I GET TO BUGIS STREET SAFELY...~feewh!
who doesnt noe how to go bugis street?rather then this KUKU here??
lol..who is the kuku..i dnt noe..i think its the writer..hahahaha!
& bough alot of food..for who? for myself..thank you! i takeaway MC!
the fries has lotsa salt..whhooo!!I LOVEIN ITS!!!
with a milo..& 2 sandwhich..& i make a junk at home after i ate..
pichures cumin up next tyme k readers..;)
i STILL LOVE YOU ALL!

a song dedicated to all the readers!;)
this make u groove by more& more kay!enjoy!!~

I LOVE READERSSS!!ARRRR!I WANNA EAT YOU LIKE COOKIE!HAHAHAHA!!!
BYEBYE

2007-10-18T03:13:00.000-07:00

haluu:)
greetings ;) everyone!..
hows y'all day been doin?fine?text me..
maybe i'll put up ya storey online..to get everyone noticed;)
sharing with one another seems great dont they?:)
ok..first thing in the morning..wasnt great,,i was like..
having lots of thinking through my head..go to sch or not to go..
i woke up late..ard 6??i shud wake up at 5 actually..so..
that 1hr was spent thinking..atlast..pity sis..i woke up..& got everything done;)evn if i was lazy..ZzZzz..headed to sch as normall..few turned up.
all at home..resting..gosh..i envy that..shud have slept all the way..
butbut....i slept at sch..as theres no lesson required:) all the way..~
ive been so sad..so decided to sleep @$@@%@% for uncounted hour
at last went hommie..:) ok good..! so..decided to visit girfreys hse..to c
hur small little bro "iman"he still like only a few mth..;p so rush2 hm like
siaoo mad women.ok..reach!ting tong..!ting tong..many2 times..
i ring2 the hse like busted..hahaha..no one hm..GREAT..i have to wait outside..-_-'' ook..i cnt stand it..i tried to climb the wall okey..i nearly reach the window..but i have no more grib to go up further..so i jumped down it was like..%^%**%^&& high ok..& i landed on my feet..like the
next blok cud hear it..i was like awww..!! pain lah siot..okok..i think of plan again..i climbed again..den the canadian pizza man saw me climbing..i "K,K" shout granma name..but i noe shes not in..
ok..i was a spiderwoman..or what so ver that climb the dusty hdb wall.!
it was F high..but i dunno why..i have the stupid guts to do.
dun ask..haha..& i climbed again..& i fall again..i climb..& fall again..
my ankle does hurts..i cant stand it..! i want to get it..then the canadian man watch me do my stunt..thnkkiew2..amazing uh..
amazing wak lu..kaki aku sakit..haha..& i climb..the last tyme..this time..
i planned to climb..1/3 of the wall..& reach my legs to the pipes!ok made it..but leg stuck..arghh cannot cum out!i still grippinng the 1cm space to put my finger..if i fall thats end for me..so i struggle2..& crack..the casing wire want to split to half..i.."ahhh..." lucky nvr fall..im gripping to that u noe..siao ryte..okok..i jumped again..its fippple the hurts now..
congrats..
hahahha..maybe a stupid incident of my day amazed you:)
a song maybe..for the readers..:)that seems to read my site;) iloveyou

perhaps,that only stargirl of urs ;)it made you happy haha..enjoy!..
gdbye readers..
only on www.the-musicsites.blogspot.com

2007-10-17T06:09:00.000-07:00

ok people,:)
this is my story..hahaha
ayte..today seems borderline:( i had to wake up early like any other school girl;)rushed everywhere..tie ponytails:D gahahaha!ok
i had to wear my torn shoes..chuck taylor..where are you..?im searching it this morning..nvrmind..past!i had to take care of deary small cussin
she's sick..awww..im so worried..she vomited far too much..
i hope she does well now..do you know..spending much much time front of com..makes u uncomfortable..it maybe one of the reason to get sick easily..the strain i guess..wel..packed my bags & walk outta gate..
screaming voice"bye people!".im out..hahaha..ok.thumpping..
results are here rite?ok..whats done let it be..just prayed..it will be better
the other round okey;) dun strain too much on this..but life has to go on
i wish happy recovery for all broken feelings..i hope i was there to support you all the way..:)wouldnt it be nice..XD
the best thing about school is when..i eat..yumm..heavens..for once
the fried rice is awsem..ouh curry chicken doesnt taste like the name..
egg..okok..around there..lol..best didnt turn up..she's sick..
wel everybody does ryte..maybe on that moment..gloomy weather made
me sleep like..half the day..haha..the cutter saw of 3 times my finger..
i got booboo now..i cant type properly..must erase & re-type..:(
i went to do dnt course work..mant didnt turn up..but
i did my junk..hahaha!tcher was worried..i saw nvrmind im ok..
but he told me that the cut on my finger was deep..
imagine you..was the one..the cutter was similar like a sewing machine
just that the needle part change to a blade..& it is use to cut acrylic..
the sound was..eeewwww...as it cuts me..zeootzeootzeooot.."ouh"i said(i was still staring at my finger on the cutter..as i look again..i cuts deeper i my skin..i go..ARGHHHHH!pain..pain pain..like monkey..hahaha
isnt it sweet..when you went home..have a gd rest & doze off like a gd girl
.. :) a song maybe..for the readers who is reading..:)

by jesse macartney..beautiful soul
here..on the-musicsites.blogspot.com

enjoy..:)
gdnight readersZzzZZZZzz

2007-10-16T03:28:00.000-07:00

hey people!
its been lately since i posted..exams are over..&
getting them tomoro...:)
thumping hard nowadays..pray i'll do okay :) ********
hari raya seems fun..nahh..okok lahh..
&& I'LL BE PLAYING DJ..FOR THE REST OF THESE BLOGG..
SO JUST..REQUEST A SONG..:) I'LL BE PLAYING IT HERE...ON themusic-sites.blogspot.com
TAGG ME!TO REQUEST A SONG!:)

2007-10-15T20:24:00.001-07:00

haloo